Arrested Development, anyone?
This morning…I got to sleep in an extra hour!
It was to go to the gynecologist, though. Oddly, this is something I don’t mind, probably because my mom worked for OB/GYNs for 20 years, and I worked there after school in high school. I’m kind of desensitized.
Fun fact: My old gynecologist is coming to our wedding! (I switched because of the move, obviously.) She’s a family friend.
This office was a little odd. There were lots of teddy bears in the room:
And a shelf of old-timey medicine bottles…and more teddy bears.
Anyway, take this as your reminder to get annual pap smears. (finger wag)
Unfortunately, I have a cyst of some kind that’s going to have to be monitored. But, the doc says it’s nothing to worry about and I trust her.
There was no workout today. I was late to work because of the appointment, and there was a going away luncheon for someone at work. BBQ was on the menu—I skipped the sides and just had a sandwich with barbecue beef.
I also had about half of a small slice of cheesecake.
Around 4 p.m., I snacked on my Greek yogurt that was in my lunch (I forgot about said luncheon and brought a lunch anyway). I knew I’d be getting home late tonight!
Because of my final dress fitting!
I have a wedding dress hanging in my house now. Whoa.
Unfortunately, I felt kind of dumpy and gross in it tonight. Apparently, every other time I try on my wedding dress sucks…so, that means when I put it on in ten days, it will be great! It’s hard not to see the other super-skinny brides in beautiful dresses and say “I wish I looked like that” or “Her dress is prettier than mine.”
I am doing my best to chalk it up to the fact that it was a long day at work, I was tired and didn’t feel like being there, and I didn’t have any of my accessories/veil on.
I got home, and another wedding gift!
Unfortunately, klutzy me actually managed to drop one on the floor and break it while I was unwrapping. So…now we have 7 ramekins, not 8. Luckily, they are only $2.50 and easily replaced.
Julia asked in the comments to yesterday’s post how I was feeling, so I thought it’d be a good time to discuss my mental state.
I think the best way I can describe how I’ve felt for the last week is like I have perma-PMS. I am moody. Some moments I am over the moon happy and excited, but in a moment I can snap and feel like taking someone’s head off. Last night I had a full-out breakdown—I deal with stress by crying, and I tend to let small things build up and let them all out at once rather than deal with things one at a time. Basically, what it amounted to is that I’m overwhelmed. I keep getting questions from wedding guests and family members, I’m juggling emails with the florist, the photographer, the hotel, the pastor, and the reception venue, and I’m….overwhelmed. And coming to the realization that even though I’ve heard it over and over, I can’t really make everyone happy. And I feel guilty for feeling this way, because I feel like I should be giddy and giggling and radiating glitter.
And those four people? Still haven’t RSVPed.
I am ready to be done and be married. I’m sure the wedding day is going to be awesome, and ultimately, I am very thankful for my friends and family that care so much about me and Tim. But…right now the last minute things still have to get done, and they’re stressing me out.
Hopefully I will get a ton of stuff done this weekend. Until then…I’m breathing. And putting one foot in front of the other, and keeping my eye on the prize. It will all be okay.
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