And it was a doozy.
I don’t want to go into specific details on the blog, but this morning, I had a full blown panic attack by 6:45 am. Hyperventilating, crying, wanting to puke, the whole nine yards. Went to work, was fine, began completely panicking again around 10:30. Control sobs in office. Boss walks in, catches me crying, is totally awesome and understanding. I take an early lunch and go to the gym.
Basically, what it boils down to is that weddings are really, really emotionally charged. My emotions are at DEFCON-5 right about now. I cried listening to the song “Forever” by Chris Brown last week in the car, for Pete’s sake. My family’s are as well. It’s not pretty. There is some definite tension going on. I am trying very hard to remember that feelings are just that—feelings—not the truth of the situation. I just hope to God everyone can calm the fuck down (myself included) by Saturday, because I don’t want our wedding to be brought down by a bunch of drama llamas.
Anyway. The workout. Since I’d been bawling my eyes out, it wasn’t exactly the most intense gym session ever. Jogged slowly to the gym, did some heavy squats and shoulder presses, felt like that was too taxing, chilled on the elliptical for 20 minutes, walked back. It’s better than nothing. It was seriously restorative, though, and just going through the motions of the gym felt incredible. Sometimes I work out for reasons other than burning calories, and today was one of those days.
Tim’s out picking up his new spectacles tonight (hooray!) so I’m flying solo. I’m decompressing with the following. A healthy, HEALTHY glass of:
And a giant quesadilla with cheese and leftover chicken from last night.
We also got some of our flatware as a wedding gift in the mail!
Our registries are pretty well pillaged lately. Good times.
And fuckyouverymuch, 10 day forecast.
In happier news, I’ve been coffee/Diet Coke/red wine free for a week and a half-ish now. Not dead yet!
My eyes are burning. I’m going to go curl up with a beagle and a disagreeable tabby cat.
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